Maybe you shouldn't think that whether getting married is right or wrong (BTW, you owe me a red pocket! :p). Life is not like that, when you try to judge something, you can judge it guilty easily cos thing always has two sides.
How about thinking life as your hands, you take this, and that, until you have full hands. Then, you need to give up something on hand in order to get extra things. Try to enjoy your life, and believe that no body is prefect, and we usually feel weak when we try to solve something alone. Do let your husband know what you think and feel, and try to solve any problem if exist. Problems can't be solved by putting it on your back. Face it or bear the pressure.
I have to say that you have problems, anyone has. I am trying to avoid myself from causing others trouble, this is a learning process that may cause us a life long to achieve. But that's worth after all. Looking back to school days is not a good idea, but I could understand that you say this just to make yourself feel better, and you should know that facing the problem is the only way to survive.
Everyone has his / her gift inborn, thinking too much is not a sin, the only thing we need to emphasis is to live happily with someone that we think he / she is important. That could be quite simple.
I feel so sorry that I don't handle the things well after all, as I am not prefect too. And I should thanks for everything you have taught me. It is really a good lesson for me, and I enjoy all moments that we have spent before. Laughters and tears, everything would be good to remember after all. Life is something that goes beyong its appearance.
No need to say thanks, friendship is not something to weight on a balance. Just write to me if you think I could help. :)
P.S. See if you feel interest for the following poem, it was written on the eve before you got marry.
小樓幾許風雨夜,淅瀝秋雨斷腸時,年年月月愁懷在,朝朝暮暮意欄柵。
海旁訂情猶昨日,斜陽黃沙擁玉人,花間鴦盟花下約,世上鴛侶世外仙。
銀河迢迢牛郎怨,深宮寂寂唐皇恨,得失無常惑因果,喜樂隨緣感夙因。
莫忘失意教訓事,記取良辰美好時,瀟洒獨行不著意,逍遙鴻飛去無痕。
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